some not great news...

I started this blog back in October 2014, when I first went into hospital with myeloma.  And then a couple of years later I started my YouTube channel.

Both were built around a number of core principles, one of which was honesty.

I knew that some people would find my social media outlets because they too were suffering with cancer or perhaps some other chronic illness.  And so it was that I made the decision to always respect my "audience" and be 100% honest with you.

I shared my journey through diagnosis, surgery, treatment and into remission and beyond.  And at every stage I told it like it was.  Nothing was dressed up, although I did try to inject some of my darker humour into the whole "thing".

8 years ago

At the end of February, eight years to the day I was rushed into hospital with a life-threatening embolism, I received the news that I knew would come one day but was nonetheless not prepared for when it came. 

I have relapsed.

My myeloma is active after nearly eight years in "partial" remission.

What the future holds I don't know.  When I was first diagnosed, I got very sick very quickly, and I don't know if that's what will happen again, or whether I'll suffer a much more gradual decline.  

I also don't know what to do treatment wise going forward.

I can have more chemotherapy, intense at first and then reducing to one session a month - but for the rest of my life.  And I don't know if I want to go down that route right now.  I can have bone-strengthening medication and that's a no-brainer really.  I don't want to suffer another spinal fracture.

Anyway, I'll endeavour to still write for this blog and make videos for as long as I can.  And I'll see you all on the other side of this mess!