hospitals

I’m fed up of them.

Two more trips there this week: a visit to A & E on Wednesday (see my last blog entry; thankfully the pain was not caused by any new fractures or signs of myeloma re-emerging) and then a planned visit on Saturday morning to hopefully get my heart back into rhythm and to slow down a bit.

I’ve suffered with atrial fibrillation for a number of years now and went into hospital to get what’s called a cardio version - basically an electric shock to the heart.  But as soon as I laid down on the hospital bed for the nurse to take an ECG, my heart (which had been in AF all the previous week and that morning up until that very moment) decided to snap back into a normal rhythm and a constant 45 beats per minute. 

Unbelievable.

Good news you might think.  But no.  It meant they couldn’t perform the procedure and sent me home.  By which time though my heart was back up to around 130 beats and devoid of any rhythm.

So, I’m now in complete limbo.  I was relying on this procedure to give me a period of normality before I have an ablation to provide a more permanent fix to this really debilitating problem.  Instead I have the uncertainty and discomfort of a heart that thinks it’s running a marathon when I’m lying down, with nothing on the horizon (there’s a 6 to 7 month wait for the ablation) to take my mind off it.

I spent most of yesterday in an extremely grumpy mood bordering on a deep depression, still in a heap of pain in my back and lamenting my exceedingly poor recent run of luck.

Surely something has to change for the positive soon?  PLEASE!!